First of all, I commend you for returning to CU. It seems that you had several career opportunities because of your past successes. You could have picked an easier road with a higher probability of success, so thanks for taking the obvious career risk by returning to Boulder. Like many CU graduates, I bleed black and gold. CU athletics have been my passion for 25 years. I was a freshman when Chuck Fairbanks was our coach. I recall the student section declaring victory if we made five first downs per game. The team was dreadful, but we knew there was something better down the road. I see similarities to those days and today. Even though we are getting thrashed by most teams, there is a feeling that we can return to the glory days. Coach Mac says all of the right things, and his players seem to be buying into his system, although the severe lack of talent and depth handed to him by his predecessors will make his job difficult (and arguably impossible to turn around). So, here is my point. Yesterday was like every other Saturday over the last many years when I looked forward to a CU football game. I had hope that we could pull out a victory, even though I am in the camp that believes a 3 win season is the best that we could expect. As I watched the game, I felt myself slipping into apathy toward the program. I am at the point that I do not see CU ever becoming a competitive program in the PAC12. We have fallen into a death spiral that could keep us from ever competing at a respectable level, let alone at a Top 20 level. The way Bill McCartney pulled us out of the mid 1980s funk was by winning games. You win games, you excite recruits, you pull in donations, you improve facilities, you build a nationwide reputation as a top program. The difference for me is I get the feeling we are not going to win the games to start the rebuilding process. We are too far into a hole to climb out. I am to the point where my interest level is near zero, and that is very upsetting. I know of other CU graduates who stopped caring about Buff football long ago. I thought I was one of those who would always stay passionate, but I am hanging on by a thread. It is not only losing games, but the way we are losing (we are not even competitive, and we are a joke in the national media). The complete mismanagement of the program over the last many years has driven away the people (ie, donors) that you will need to rebuild. And perhaps that is where I am misdirected. Maybe my perspective is jaded. I suppose being a bottom feeder football program is ok for many schools, including CU. But if that is the case, you can count me out. I will still bleed black and gold, but my emotional and financial investment will go toward something else. And I will need to find something else to do on Saturdays. Thanks.